The Feeling

the feeling was addictive,

got a buzz in relief when it was over,

forgotten how its like to live,

with all the weight on my shoulders

congratulations from friends,

even family would partake,

you look amazing they’d say,

you lost some more weight

Id found peace in controlling my body,

whether it’d be good or bad,

the thought of self love,

was just a dream Id had

calculating calories,

I had been amazing at math,

proud to make a day without eating,

I was on the wrong path

but how can you get help,

when no one can see,

don’t show struggle on the outside,

but on the inside id be.